The jigsaw puzzle

One of the reasons for this blog is because the same was done for me and I figured it would be.. fair? if I did the same.. and its my blog anyway so whatever..

Kris, as I've told you many times before, you mean everything to me.. the entire world. A few weeks before you went to Brighton, I was pretty much certain it was gonna be over as you said a long distance relationship will never work for you. There was no way I could change that so I just agreed with it. But as soon as you left and told me the things you did, I suddenly became the happiest person to walk the earth.

It's so unbelievably hard having to live every day, ask myself the same question and get no answer to it.

When we had months and months ahead of us before you left, I didn't really think of it as such a big deal because I thought "oh we still have ages to go", but it's true when they say time goes by too fast. To be honest, it went so damn fast that I can't even figure out how it all happened.

I do get my mood swings and my bad days, which can make me a very horrible person BUT, no matter how I feel, my feelings for you never change.. not even a tiny little bit. I don't even know how to love you more because I love you with ALL my heart. And I'm not saying that just because I can, I'm saying it because it's all true.

Lately, my days are all the same. I wake up, think about you, do whatever has to be done that day, think of you while I'm there, come home, go to bed, think about you and then sleep. Recently, there hasn't really been a time or a day where I haven't thought about you at all. I'm always worried.. wondering whether you're okay, who you're with and what you're doing..

I'm not the best and I never will be.
I'll never be smart enough, I'll never be pretty enough and I'll just never be enough compared to what you actually deserve.. so I'm deeply sorry I can't be anything you might want me to be.
But I'll always be there for you when you need me.. no matter where you are and no matter what time, I'll always try my best you make you happy.. and I will always love you.
<3